Number three

Awesome progress!

Resolution one was to browse more and more blogs using this blogger id...
I browsed through blogs, but, was never interested in posting message even though I had urge sometimes...

Resolution two was to write a blog once a week...
Ha ha... Writing after one month... Perhaps, I got confused between week and month... Or, was it intentional! Was it like that I do not want to create anything new, anything new for me! When I am unable to protect what I have, when I cannot keep what I possess, what is the purpose of creation!!!

Really! I feel like a failure, and I know, I will always remain one!!!

Second Impression - Not at all optimistic

Lovely progress after the first month. There is only one visitor for the blog, and that is me. However, it is a known fact that it takes time to gain foothold in the blogger arena, and not only that, we need to be actively active. Actively active - I just now created that phrase. And I believe, the phrase is good!!!

Anyhow, some resolutions for next few days -
1. Actively participate in blog browsing using my new blogger identity
2. Post regularly, at least once in a week

And yes, still now, I am not able to write what I really wanted to share in this blog.
I want to share my life with the whole world. And I know that I will share someday.

I WILL SURELY.

First Impression

This is my first post. However, this is not my first blog. I used to maintain some other blog, which I stopped using because of some personal reasons.

Today, when I am writing the first post of this blog, I feel like a loser. I always believed in dreams. I always believed that I would finally make my dream come true. I always believed that dreams are invincible. But, I could not follow my dreams anymore.

My dreams were a bit different, perhaps that was the root problem. My dreams were not about some materials, not about some objects. It was more subtle. I saw the dreams of a peaceful life. I saw the dreams of a small but contented life. I saw the dreams of a life in the path of the right. Yes, I know that I was/am less ambitious. I really agree to everything that others blame on me. But, I am more ambitious than others. I dream of something rare in today's world.

I lost my dreams. I gave in to pressure. My girlfriend keeps on telling me that my path is not right. And I gave in. I argued to her, I shouted on her, I broke up with her, but, in the end, I gave in. Perhaps, I did not believe in my dreams strong enough. I will take it as my failure. I understand that it's me who is moving away from the right path. But, I am not strong enough to lose her.

A dead end! Somewhere in the middle of the road, I have to choose something. And, perhaps I chose the wrong way. And I know I will regret it in future. However, I just want to take faith from Robert Frost on his poem - 'The Road Not Taken'. Because, I know, whenever, there is some choice to be made, and whatever the choice you finally make, you have to regret, not because it was the wrong decision, but because we believe that the grass on the other side is greener.